Tmd.

sian . i still can't play solo today .
freakin hell .
there is never once i played well.
at least wanxin few times can hit the notes
bt i will always have few notes tt is out .
even durin the performance at Paragon oso like tt.
im gg crazy oredi.
hengjie told us alot today .
can't help it bt i cried while she was tokin
and soon i cried more. along wif wanxin.
i keep tellin myself nth to be afraid abt. yet i will still scared till
hand all cold whn my part is comin.
i tink is fuckin irritatin.
yet i cant change. haish . i m left with one day .
it is so nt enuf .
meet xh after band.
waited her for quite long. thn on the elevator i cry again.
on mrt oso . cox again . i keep recallin the things she said to us.
and nt tt she is disappointed. bt even me myself is oso disappointed.
bt now i have decided that .
It will be a good performance. and i will make it.
i wont cry for no purpose. i will rmb wad i cry for.
[continue at mrt] thn we collected $$ frm buyers .
then we ate Pepper Lunch . nice lehh
i ate curry de . dontknow the name.
thn take shuttle bus home. chat alot. i feelin so sleepy.
today nt gg to play anymore. have to use the time to relax abit
if nt i will nt play well no matter hw much i practice.
tml will CHIONG. no matter how tired.
tts all.
and freakin hell . i hate DaBianLian lah
tmd.
you think u who.
stop talkin crap can ?
you also cant do it. please luh .
i know urs is so much diff compared to us
bt .
i jus hope u Shut The Hell Up.
you are nt the leader.
if you are. thn u have the right to talk.
if nt then Shut Up once again.